Mother's Day?

I know it is supposed to be a day to celebrate the institution of "Motherhood."  However, for me it's not.  There always seems to be family drama or trauma.  This year won't be different on that score either.  The writing is on the wall, so to speak. (Mom issues this year.)

The downside of being a single mom is I've never really had my own children remember me on Mother's Day.  No dad around to help them remember or provide funding or ideas.  (The irony is that their father sure got ticked when Father's Day rolled around and he didn't get a card.  typical.)  Same thing for birthdays. Last Mother's Day was a very nice exception to that rule though.  After a certain age, when you've taught your children to be kind and courteous, you would think you should not have to remind them of those occasions.  Anyway, I don't look forward to the day on a personal level - ever.

When I was growing up, Mother's Day was a big deal.  We went to church with the appropriate white or red corsage for the mom or grandmother.  (People don't do those anymore, I don't think.)  My sister and I sang in the church choir all our lives and there was usually special music.  Next, we almost always had everyone to our house for lunch which my mom insisted on cooking.  She loved being the sacrificing martyr.  That always made me question why she did it.  If it ruined her day, what was the point?  Oh, it was being able to play the martyr.  Tacky of me I know.  But, she said all she wanted was for us to clean the house and help her cook for her gift.  However, it was never done right in her estimation, and after all her cooking, we just had to do it over again.

I just want peace and quiet.  A day with no drama.  I have a feeling I won't get it though.  Hmm.  Bitter, much?  Probably.